Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Chapter 53:
at 20:28
HUISHAN!♥
Was talking to G on bus, & I talked about HuiShan.
& I MUST NOTE DOWN THIS INCIDENT.
(I can't remember the exact day alr! But it's one of the last at MacRitchie!)
Goal: To stop alternate kick - i.e. paddle right lean right, paddle left lean left.
'Cause apparently, Shan & me were not very well suited 'cause of habits and thus we tend to be in conflict like tilting of the boat.
Yeapps, that's why we couldn't do in on the AK! ):
Yes, and time wasn't really on our side, so I really tried very hard on that day 'cause I feel that it's my habit that must be changed!
& I got very desperate and demoralised.
'Cause I keep making the boat tilt in the way she's not used to, and I feel guilty and like a burden.
Yea, and my voice shook in the middle of the training 'cause I felt super helpless and exasperated and all the tons of negative feeling of uselessness.
Hahhaa, I still remember trying to tell time to her in a normal voice.
& finally after one failed set, I told her : Shan, give me 10 seconds.
Then I started crying behind her, and I think stunned her.
LOL!
Hahhaa, and between sobs I went, "30 seconds, 15..." etc.
But I just want to say : She's always there!
Like when I selfishly cried after K2-1000m semis ON THE BOAT DIRECTLY BEHIND HER, when I know well that she's equally affected and disappointed but is always willing herself not to cry.
):
Though now, we're really nowhere close, but I still love her!
I mean, I sometimes think it's a deliberate choice and attempt to be aloof, but since it's a decision, I do respect it!
& I was always overjoyed when someone told me that HuiShan become more crazy, high & like a kid when she was with me.
I'm glad to be there to influence her to be more like me!
(Though I'm not entirely sure this is a good thing! I mean, ME! Like, crazy you know?!?!)
Ya, & this bring me to the next thing!
Laughing on the boat doesn't mean we were not serious k?
We just had fun paddling TOGETHER!
Hahahah, though we giggled & chuckled frequently!
But all inside joke ma! That's what make life sweet!
I STILL CANNOT GET OVER MARKUS BANNING US FROM WATER & TRAINING THAT ONE TRAINING CAUSE HE SAID WE WEREN'T SERIOUS TO TRAIN!
I mean, everybody have eyes.
But okay, differing expectations in attitudes of different people, I understand.
(Like, I won't expect Rachel to slack!)
NO LEY, I DON'T UNDERSTAND.
Hahahhaha!
But okay!
END OF STORY & REFLECTION.
Just wanna say, HUISHAN, we're fated!
(:
DID YOU KNOW?
After the first time we were placed together, I turned to her & said, "Hey, I think we'll last till end of nationals." *BIG SMILE*
(Though that time there were a lot of changes in the girls team!)
& she turned back and happily exclaimed, "ME TOO!"
That made my day.
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Blocks are OVER!
I'm sorry, I don't really feel much.
I mean, for someone who took only half, there's not much to celebrate right?
BUT! HEAR HEAR!
TOH JIA LE HAS FINALLY PASSED HER MATHS.
This is a disgrace, but I've never passed any major math paper.
maybe there's like 1 or 2? I seriously cannot remember.
GOSH, what happened to my double A1s for A math & E math.
This is utter embarrassment.
):
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After Bio paper, went to have Suki Sushi Buffet w Fly, Xuan, Jia, Deb & HoiMan.
I totally couldn't eat much 'cause I was so tired! (Didn't sleep since 9pm the previous day!)
Went back school at evening to run (yes, finally again!) w Rach at cardio room. ♥
Gosh, I miss going home with her, we always talked & talked & talked so much.
:/
I ran with G today too.
COMBO.
I'm totally attempting to lead a healthy lifestyle!
*Determined*
I kinda found back the love for running already.
Ironic, but when I needed to run the most (canoeing!), I hated it the most too!
Went to gym & I CAN STILL DO 100POUNDS LATS.
Yay! Hahahaha, but I'm supposed to tone down!
~!@#$%^&*()
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I'm really happy today, what about you?
(:
