Saturday, July 10, 2010
Chapter 55:
at 02:04
Posting in advance ! (What kind of nonsense is this?!)
'cause next 2 days gonna be out of house for >12hours!
I will be at Marina Square Atrium, Level 2 with the GIRLS ♥ !
Hahaha, we'll be helping out with ShapeRun2010!
NO WE ARE NOT RUNNING. LOL!
We're giving out race packs on Sat & Sun.
A little stressed 'cause time is tight & I need to do a lot of things.
But, okay, I think it'll be time worth spending! (:
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& partly 'cause I just wanna type & sort out thoughts.
'cause it's 2 am, & I'm a nocturnal animal, so I think when there's no daylight.
Hahahaha, even my daddy think I'm crazy 'cause I always stay up & sleep in the day.
(Maybe this explains the reliance on caffeine.)
Before I napped just now, I told myself, when you wake you must be cheery again!
Hahahhaa!
Pre-sleeping self-hypnosis.
'cause I was explaining to myself, (you know, the rational vs the irrational part of myself) that some things are often inevitable.
As much as I'm against it, they still happen.
Be it poverty, inequality or just the end of the world.
There's many things I want to change, but I'm not in the position to.
It's just that when I thought I was in the position to do so, & tried, and failed, it sucks.
Then I began asking myself whether all these are karma 'cause I made life difficult for people last time.
Sigh.
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& I was thinking, really, there is no such thing as empathy in the world.
I mean, how many times have one told you, "Aww, I understand.".
But, do they?
How can they?
They can try, but they can't.
They don't have my perspective, my principles, my values, the situation, and everything that happens to YOU it's just personal to YOU & YOU ONLY.
I agree, there's always similar situation, but for me, definition of empathy is 100% understanding.
Which I deemed impossible to achieve & will never occur.
THOUGH, it's still good to share your troubles! (:
& to my, there's GOOD sympathy & BAD sympathy which totally is somewhat equivalent to PITY.
I don't really get the idea of sympathy anyway.
Just feel that there's this superiority-inferiority complex involved, which I totally DISLIKE.
To decide in the moment to sympathise with this person simply shows that one think that he/she is in a better state & thus is in a position to feel sorry for that person.
No?
Then, question is, what makes him/her thinks that he/she CAN sympathise?
I.e. A well-bodied person sympathising with (or even pitying) a handicapped individual.
Why should the well-bodied person do it?
For all I know, the handicapped could jolly well be a genius, or maybe not to the extent.
He could actually just be contented with his lot in life.
& again it's my motto in life: 'cause he might be spiritually more substantiated & better able to withstand such obstacles in life hence 'chosen' to be the one.
Yes la, you and I both can be contented with what we have in life, be it wealth, health, or stealth.
(Okay, I just wanna rhyme; but you can be a thief/spy you know!)
But possessing something doesn't mean that I am in a better position in life yea?
Indeed, society places differing values on all the varied items in life, but actually, it means nothing too.
Aiya, I just don't like passing remarks people make that comes out with a tinge of sneer & superiority.
Makes me think, "What make you think you should?"
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THIS IS RANDOM, BUT!
POINT 4! Totally when I'm feeling crazy I go into that mode.
LOL.
LOL.
I think, everyone is cute in their own little way, sweet in their own personal thoughts.
It's just whether you take time to break down their defenses.
Though obviously, there's always people who are cuter than others.
But define cute.
It differs from people to people.
So I think, different people find different people cute, & at the end of the day, everybody just has someone who appreciates them.
In my PERFECT world, that is.
Or maybe this does happen, just that the saddest thing is, the person you find cute may not reciprocate the feeling.
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I'm really think a lot when it's dark hur.
I still wanna rattle off, but let's go do some work!
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