Monday, February 21, 2011
Chapter 214:
at 00:42
I am not a good person at times.
And therefore this is a solemn apology post for 2 darlings in my life.
I'm sorry that you have to live with a stubborn girl for the rest of your life.
I'm very sorry but I doubt I would ever become mellow even after 10 years.
I'm sorry that sometimes I appear to insist my way of living on the both of you.
Sorry that sometimes I place my expectations of you so high.
And of course, I apologise for not saying things nicely and packaging them but just rant them out, expecting the harsh tone be automatically filtered away and that y'all will get what I mean.
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Sometimes I feel guilty for doing this to y'all, sometimes I wonder am I pushing too hard?
Sometimes I think, am I placing my principles so high and views so tall that i neglect what you truly want.
But deep down, I still think I'm doing the best I can for the 2 of you.
I'm sorry aye?
But I still hope you 2 will listen to me, 'cause I still think that's for the best.
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA. I suck.
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& with much love, jiale.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Chapter 213:
at 22:40
You know, for someone looking for support, one should inspire trust and faith in others.
'cause for people who take alternative paths, they impress upon me as individuals who are independent, self-motivating, self-assured, and really knowing their stuffs.
And have elaborate and detailed plans, not just leaving it up to the fate.
Because why?
YOU are already taking the alternative path, therefore giving up the right to simply move with the flow.
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I am not saying you will NOT succeed in this path, but really, inspire me to believe in you.
Because I truly believe, being able to appreciate (to the extent of a fan) may not necessarily means you have the ability to create.
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In this point in time, I can only surmise 2 conclusion, one is that you're (i) naive, and (ii) courageous.
I hope it will be the latter.
If so, I will admire you for not joining the rat race, and not merely simply living life.
But I hope you would be able to live life, taking the path you choose.
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Chapter 212:
at 22:19
Pathetic is not the tears you cry, nor the sadness that overwhelm, but the lousy attitude one adopts in life.
I'm glad you're over it.
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Idealistic is merely about the depth of passion you feel for the issue, but not the feasibility nor the practicality of the said plans.
I hope you will get over it.
Of course, you can say I can't understand how much passion you feel.
And I don't wish to argue 'cause I will not necessarily lose but that's kind of pointless.
It's not my life, not my say.
I will only ask a question:
For someone so interested and passionate, do you understand Adobe Photoshop, Flash player, movie maker, etc.?
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Saturday, February 12, 2011
Chapter 211:
at 13:25
As much as I don't like people who are only there when it's good times, people who are only here when life sucks are so bewildering that I do not wish for you to be near me.
Don't give a damn for my life only when I post and say that I'm sad.
If you have to know that life's not going well for me through my blog, it merely means we aren't that close.
Get it?
& if I do not sought you out to listen to my woes, don't come to me, because simply, you are not up for the task.
And to see you becoming concerned with our lives only when we are sad and heartbroken is maddening.
Just what are your motives?
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The way to a relationship is not just i) good times, or ii) bad times.
It's both.
Get it?
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Friday, February 11, 2011
Chapter 210:
at 13:30
Girl: Slow down, I'm scared.
Boy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary.
Boy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Now slow down!
Boy: Now give me a hug.
Girl: *gives boy hug*
Boy: Can you take my helmet off and put it on yourself? It's bugging me.
Girl: Alright, now slow down.
Boy: I love you, babe.
Girl: I love you too. Just slow down, PLEASE!
(In the paper the next day)
A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of a brake failure. 2 people were on it, but only 1 had survived.
The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know.
Instead, he had her say she loved him and felt her hug 1 last time, then he had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.
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Read this somewhere (*winks*), & it really really disturbed me.
I don't like to read about sad endings.
No, I absolutely HATE it - I drop any book/drama when I don't find the ending to my liking.
And after 5 minutes, I suddenly realise something - WHY WAS THE GIRL NOT WEARING ANY SAFETY HELMET?!
So eventually, the moral of the story is actually not how noble his love was (though it was) but that we should observe safety so that none would be sacrificed.
& also, I believe the part about him wanting the girlfriend to survive, and to experience the last "I love you" and hug is kind of nonsensical, because, if he had died, how could we have known what he thought?
Therefore, his awareness of the brake failure, his consciousness when making such attempts is merely - assumed.
Girls, don't ever be swayed by emotions again okay?
Mind over heart makes you stronger, at times.
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Chapter 209:
at 23:18
Darling P, be strong.
Do you believe me when I say the best things in life are never perfect?
I find JunMing a blessing to me, but in the eyes of so many others, he may be a societal burden, and really someone not worth taking a second look of.
A relationship, or any friendship, for the matter, is never in a vacuum of its own.
It's expected since the world is so full of many living souls which are all so different and unique.
The various peer pressure, the many incidents that occur on a daily basis, the multitude of misconceptions and the disgustingly skewed preconceptions some have on others before truly knowing them.
And what's worse, when such exasperating situations explode like mines all around you, or rather like one atomic bomb from a known source which turn its back on you.
Guess what, focus on the beauty around you, even though the ugly is baring its teeth at you.
If there was no darkness, would the brightness be appreciated?
If there was no malice, would kindness ever be deemed kind?
If there was no sadness, would the magnitude and reality of happiness have dawned on you?
Darling, never expect anything in life to be smooth-sailing.
Moreover, anything that is easily achieved will never be carefully treasured.
It's fine.
Smile aye, since tears seems to only blur your eyes and smear your cheeks, yet not able to fling the hurt back at them, nor relieve you of them.
So really, don't cry k?
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Things happen for a reason, as much as we don't want to experience them.
Look in the bright light, it can make you stronger.
It can make the relationship stronger.
It can make y'all treasure each other more.
As long as you don't break.
So be strong.
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I love you alot, jiale.
(& I believe he does too.)
Chapter 208:
at 09:07
Happy New Year, everybody!
*GRINS*
Anyway, my siblings were commenting how lunar new year is so much more enjoyable, what with the long holiday, and most people actually slack at home (for the reunion dinner) than head out to crowded areas to count down, aye?
This year's new year had been quiet, but truly amazing and pleasant for me.
It had been really awesome spending time with my family.
Truth to be told, the mention of them on my blog is minimal, simply because I'm not close to them.
To a point in which I don't talk to my eldest sister 'cause we were on bad terms.
& we actually started talking again, sincerely.
I cannot emphasise on how wonderful this is to me.
She actually lost her wallet and it was returned to her, so we asked her to thank the Chinese gods for it.
& she told me she also thanked them for the fact that we're conversing again.
And while I just reply "Oh, hee.", I really, really, really felt blessed.
I may not understand why we suddenly started talking, but really, I'm not about to question that!
Second chances don't come by easily, so I am not gonna let this slip through my fingers again.
I mentioned inertia deterring me, and now it's gone, it's time to cherish.
Thank God, wherever/whoever You are, for this sincere reunion of the family.
& really, this few days made me realise as much as I had been denying, or not letting myself appear inadequate, family is very important.
Thanks for the awesome family I was born in and raised up with.
I may not be the best member, nor the one who is easiest to live with, but I'll change, I promise.
(& this, will be one of the priorities of the year 2011.)
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Internet connection at home is a boo-boo, so I'm estranged from the cyber world as of now.
:(
(Starhub SUCKS big time.)
We're all friggin' irritated w their customer service (or lack thereof).
But oh well, things happen for a reason, at least we're spending wonderful time with each other and not facing our own square flashing screens. :p
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I actually was tempted to let this blog stagnate permanently, 'cause I can't seem to find topic/energy/time to post regurlarly, & I no longer find as much meaning as I don't really find any connection with anyone reading my thoughts anymore.
But this really random message brighten my day today!
I'm being random but I stumbled across your blog today and I think it's really awesome! Your post about how noble teaching is as a profession really touched me. All teachers should aspire to be like you :)Awww, so sweet! ♥
Thanks so much, Grace.
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