Monday, June 15, 2009
Chapter 1:
at 03:24
Great, I'm motivated to get back into the blogging business.
Time now, 3.25 am and there's training tomorrow.
That just goes to show how enthusiastic I am about this new product.
Well, truth to be told, I had trouble sleeping.
So, here I am.
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You know, habits are hard to maintained & once broken it's almost near impossible to get them back.
That was me with blogging in the previous blog.
Breaking the trend and just stopping there.
Perhaps, then, I knew that even if I posted, there would be a great imbalance as I wasn't certain how much happy and spirited news I could churn out in response to negative views hur!
Nowadays, I felt that life is more or less more normal for me, and I do not feel as troubled and lost as 4 months ago. (:
Speaking of which, this year, albeit only 6 months and around 4 months of school passed, has indeed been trying.
All of which was not at all foreseen last year.
:/
Though it was pretty demoralising and discouraging, it's still a life experience aye!
(I'm still glad it's over.)
Let's see:
There was the end of holidays, officially marked on 02 Feb, quickly followed by the start of orientation and all the panicky moments hailed!
Trying to fit in is really tiring and not knowing anyone was really quite bad and low on spirits!
Juggling with time, choosing CCAs, getting thrown into a new class full of different people of various natures.
Having to neglect secondary school friends due to hectic schedule, keeping up with the schoolwork (O levels certainly pales in comparison), attending trainings, keeping up with HuangChen practices, teaching tuition.
OMYMAMA~
That was frenzied..
I still remembered that period I was really not quite myself, like kind of lost the passion to be enthusiastic and everything. Even got to the extent of being rather afraid of just plain being myself lest criticism and nonacceptance results.
):
But, it's all in the past.
:D
It's still not the ideal situation I would liked to have currently, but what more can I expect.
I really do only have 24 hours in a day, and am a procrastinator by nature.
How?
Sigh~
But, I think, the worst has passed.
I happily enjoying trainings with all the teammates though I do feel quite overwhelmed by the intensity and frequency!
There's only about 1 day of rest, maximum, between two trainings and I still want to play, read, have alone time and etc.!
Time is really not enough! ):
&, despite feeling quite scared of the class in regards of relationships aspects, it's all turning quite alright.
But there still a lot of rooms for improvements!
Sigh, I keep telling myself I must try and be friendlier and stuff but sometimes it's really kind of daunting aye!
But again, I'm only left with 1.5 years more with them!
So, I must try harder :D
As for, friends..What more can I say.
The crashing of schedules is really..not welcomed by both parties but all are so busy!
SIGH~
But still am glad that some of us always attempts to try to stay in contact and meet up!
I hereby promise that I will try to dedicate and set aside time for my friends!.
As we grow older, we all have to learn the skills of juggling time.
There are so many tasks to accomplish and so many people to catch up with.
What do you prioritise?
Sometimes, it's really difficult and rather unfeeling to choose one over another.
But, you can't possibly split yourself up or clone yourself, can you?
):
I do hope I get better at this..
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Ah well, I better go and sleep 'cause tomorrow got training!
Must persevere and be strong!
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