Saturday, August 20, 2011
Chapter 243:
at 01:55
Was having a short conversation with my brother about the CCAs I joined and I mentioned the one which advocates business with a heart.
Basically this CCA encourages its members to generate business projects that are socially-driven and not profit-driven. They give back to society by perhaps charging a nominal sum of money while providing aid to needy groups/to improved the environment.
My bro indignantly told me: It's retarded.
Why?
He just insisted that businesses are meant to earn money, and that trying to change the nature of it is just plain and downright foolish.
Is that true?
I don't agree. I concur with the objective and the sense of mission thus I signed up.
I don't believe ALL business can be socially-driven 'cause it's just not efficient. However, I'm certain that the world and life don't operate on certainties and extremities.
So why can't some businesses be socially-driven?
Why can't some projects be aimed at improving lives of people while still involving a transaction?
Why can't we give these projects benefits of doubt before condemning them if it means that some lives can be improved?
Maybe that's why I don't foresee myself being an accountant for life.
I can definitely predict that I'll be jaded after some years and just be aimlessly leading life 'cause this is just not what I see in life.
I don't believe money and profit is everything.
I don't trust that money can buy you happiness.
Indeed, poverty can't do that too but why reach for so, so, so much more when you actually do have enough already? Take a look around, there are still so many people less fortunate so why can't we reach out to them?
& since we all aren't that rich that we can be full-time volunteers or settle for the meager salaries that social workers are paid (believe me, I thought of this career option) so why can't we strike a balance and put what we have learn into good use & give back to the community?
Sure, I do not know that such projects will definitely work and prove to be sustainable, but which business venture is 100% successful? None right? But why is it that people are justified to try if it is profit-driven?
All I want to see is such efforts not be scoffed at/brushed off 'cause if you haven't been there & tried it, who are you to just shoot it off?
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No worries, I love my bro & he is not heartless. His main point was just that business = profit, and that he'll just use some of it to do charity work.
But really, what's stopping you from merging the 2 together?
Is there a definite contradiction?
I don't think so.
There will be opportunity costs incurred but why can't we just operate on the point in which the monetary losses is equivalent to the societal gains?
This is what we have learnt in economics, isn't it?
So really, what is stopping us from doing business w a heart?
Friday, August 19, 2011
Chapter 242:
at 00:09
D, it's the 100th day.
Are you happy wherever you are now?
Are you hearing and seeing me?
What happens now and what goes from here?
Filled with so many questions that I just don't want to think about them but not thinking of them makes me feel un-filial.
Somebody, tell me what to do, what to think and what to feel.
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Chapter 241:
at 20:09
Life's really fragile.
I just heard news that one of my aunt who always appeared hearty had congested blood vessel and almost had a heart attack. Fortunately my cousins sensed something amiss and sent her to the hospital.
Can't bear to think of the consequences man.
Cherish people, ok?
The irony is that even I am not doing it so why the hell am I advocating it? Search me.
I always vow to become better, 'cause what if there's no more chance for me to show her my appreciation. But I always feel so discouraged and unmotivated after shit happens. What to do?
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& can somebody just bring me to watch a sappy movie to get my tears out?
I feel constipated with tears.
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This struck a chord with me 'cause I'll never sing of love if it doesn't exist.
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D, just to call you one more time. To see you one more time. To hear you one more time.
Somehow, recently, things keep reminding me of you.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Chapter 240:
at 19:54
Suddenly awash with the sensation of missing D terribly.
So much so that I walked home crying.
I think recently I just havent been thinking much about D, trying hard to just get used to things as it is.
But just now I chanced upon photos of him & I just couldn't help feeling immensely sad on the way home.
Can't believe how a few months change so much things.
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Chapter 239:
at 23:37
Feel like I need a good cry. Perhaps I should go and watch a sappy movie.
Or maybe it's just PMS.
Just feel unhappy that I'm feeling unhappy. :(
Chapter 238:
at 23:04
Feeling very over-stretched these few days in terms of time. Just feel so packed everyday that days passed by with events lined up day after day. & after all this, I just need a breather - some time alone. *takes deep breaths*
I was just thinking how people all seem so warm and friendly initially. I mean, sure, there are the few whom you know right from the start that they don't share the frequency as you. But how about all the rest? I guess only time will show the true colours of people.
I was actually lamenting to my SMUX camp mates how we seem to know each other, but we don't exactly know. I do mean it.
I mean, what we all see on the surface is what others allow us to see right? Sure, some people just don't cover their tracks as well, but I'm sure all of us attempts to be on our best behaviours and attitudes.
It's like, come on, none of them even know what happened to me in my past 19 years, the events which shaped my life and the friends I hold so very dear. They don't understand how deeply I hold my principles and how mean I can get. Right?
Basically, I just find making superficial hi-bye friends retarded. These people can actually disappear from my life, no? But I guess it's meeting ALL these people before you truly find the ones whom you really like and enjoy their company.
I guess I just feel overwhelmed after having so much human interaction and seeing/sensing little gestures which I dislike immensely.
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I absolutely find these actions distasteful:
- People being overly clique-ish; it irks the hell out of me. You are going to a camp to make friends, not to act popular/exclusive. Get a life.
As I mention earlier, different people have different frequency and we enjoy different types of company. But you know, once someone deliberately tries to exclude others, it's just downright rude and mean.
Yes, it's an extremely undefined line, but I guess it's just the intention behind actions that makes me so irritated. It's sensitive 'cause I believe my canoe team used to have this problem.
It's not being unable to fit in that's the problem, it's FEELING that they refuses to let you in that suck.
& the most loser-ish part is that it's their insecurity that no one will stick by them that cause them to grab on so tight to people and refuse to let others in. & the simple fact that they enjoy the feeling of being exclusive.
And I hate it. Period. - & I really find superficiality offensive.
Yes, the world is a myriad of abilities all dispersed through humanity. Smart vs Stupid, Pretty vs Ugly, Rich vs Poor. But why can't we just simply acknowledge what is lain on the surface and see right pass through it?
Why should looks keep mattering? (I am not trying to be a sour grape, you can think otherwise.)
But I hate it when guys are only interested in pretty girls, and when girls are only interested in handsome dudes. Yes, it's human nature to be attracted to beautiful things, this I can't deny.
But after everything, can't we all just acknowledge: "Aye, he's hot.", "She's pretty!" & move the hell on?
Why does it become a criteria of friendship? Or is it because there's hidden motives behind friendship - like looking for potential bf/gf?
& personally I find people who are conscious of their own above average looks usually arrogant, narcissistic and superficial.
That said, I find unassuming people who don't realise that they're pretty/cute/hot really awesome and nice.
Yes, and it's all these that I see that makes my blood pressure rise by a notch. (Okay la, exaggeration, but you get the idea of how disgusted I feel.)
So take deep breaths, rant, and be happy.
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Am awfully tired. Night y'all.
(Secretly thankful today's mahjong session w B, NH & K @ 1030pm was cancelled.) Newer Posts
