Sunday, November 14, 2010
Chapter 141:
at 22:13
I feel rather pensive currently, not that there's any reason that I should be feeling this way.
Perhaps as what some say, I just think to much for my own good.
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You know, sometimes I get very exasperated with how the world function.
Don't worry, I'm not the angsty girl who raves and rants at every single little thing that does not go her way, though there are always the occasional whinings.
What I really am perplexed about is the contrast between the actual and perceived image of a person.
Why do people strive so hard to be someone they're not, or rather hide their true selves?
Sometimes, I want to offer benefits of doubt to a person, e.g. perhaps she didn't know what she was doing, etc.
But when it is obvious that she hides what she has been doing behind your back deliberately - sins of omissions, it means that she actually understands the moral complexities behind the issue.
Yet, she does it.
Again and again.
It's fine.
(Of course it isn't but the main point of this entry is not about morality.)
I get an unbalance feeling when the world believes her projected image.
It feels as though I am living life wrongly.
No, I do not want her life.
I do not want to live a facade, I do not want people to think I'm pure, innocent, sweet and blur when I'm actually downright scheming and manipulative.
(Not that I am.)
It's just that I don't understand, how someone can put in so much effort to cover up her ugliness (not the physical assets la~), & to tone up her physique than to simply change her shameful character (since she feels the need to conceal it yea?).
& how the world is so stupid to be taken in by it.
Okay, for a moment I was gullible too so I can't really blame and scorn at the world.
But I was just thinking & reflecting at how ridiculous some things in life are.
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Enough of this nonsense. ~ Newer Posts
