Monday, June 22, 2009
Chapter 5:
at 22:12
Okay, I'm not going to make it to one week without posting!
:D
Training today.
I'm LATE again.
Got to get rid of this trend.
:/
& halfway through training, I think I've became a lil' claustrophobic.
I'm truly afraid of dying from suffocation..
It sucks to be gasping for air but yet keep feeling that it's not enough.
):
Hence, I began thinking.
I'm not afraid of death, but I don't want to struggle & struggle but am not given a chance, leading to death..
It's kind of scary, wanting to live, & trying your best to (by gasping for air to maintain life) but can't 'cause no air can get in..
It's like struggling to no avail.
& I'm really scared of these situation..
:/
& my engine for trainings is slowing down.
As in, for running, I'm pushing myself on now, and I can do it!
:D
But, for other aspects sometimes, I find myself in the midst of giving up, and having negative thoughts.
):
Unbecoming..
:/
But sometimes, it's hard.I SHOULD STOP THE NEGATIVE THOUGHTS.
Moreover when you think that you are swimming against a current, or rather swimming in a sea that doesn't care whether you drown or not as compared to other swimmers, it's harder than ever.
>:(
.
After training had JTS at Shokudo(Raffles City).
It lacks some atmosphere aye~
Heh!
Then went Junction8 to watch Ghosts of Girlfrieds Past with Benjamin and YiJia.
(:
The movie is kinda weird but still okay~
:D
& thus ends my day.
.
& I'm mourning over that one week holidat that WOULD NOT be extended.
):
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