Monday, December 6, 2010
Chapter 170:
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I feel guilty for making such decisions, but really, when haven't I for doing things which I know might hurt others, but might benefit myself in the long run.
Even in the cases of friends who will continually hurt me.
Even when I struggled hell when it's cases like this.
It's like history coming true, just w different conditions and persons.
But eventually, I lose.
No?
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One should never push the limits.
With understanding comes greater tolerance.
But one should keep in mind, no matter what, there's a limit.
Especially in ludicrous situations.
& again, I can only take joy in that you'll become better, as a final gift to you.
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Food for thought.
Do we as humans, often take love from others and stuff it down others' throat, when they do not need it?
For example, love of a mother is endless towards a child.
But the child, will no doubt experience occasion when it pass the love on to friends, boyfriends or idols.
No?
It's kind of sad.
(I'm guilty-as-charged.)
Let's view it in a tangible light:
Love of the home-maker (mom/dad) comes in as a form of money.
Money for your allowance.
Fact: Regardless of how much you save, you are using their money.
(It comes from the allowance, indisputable; I rest my case when one is financially independent.)
So, what gives you the right to spend so much on another?
(Watch it, keyword - another.)
Have you started earning?
Have you done any work worthy of a pay?
So aren't you stupidly passing on the love to someone?
HUR?
To girlfriends/boyfriends.
(Yes, I will stick to this principle, and go dutch, unless I spend with my own earned money.)
To incomes of idols.
Whatever.
Plain frivolous.
(Not that I am not, but of course, once again the limit word kicks in again.)
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Lastly, limit itself is subjective.
When thinking from one's perspective, it's endless in how people have to treat you.
But sometimes, think.
Think whether you've overstep the line.
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Because while you're immersed in self-pity for yourself, you didn't notice that I stepped away.
It's too stifling & again, I feel that I lack something again.
Something I simply cannot measure up to.
Plainly, because of the stupid and idealistic priorities you set aside blindly.
Which, regardless of how much I try, I can't seem to reshuffle it.
& that's why I turn my back, hoping that both parties will find their happiness, in their own ways. Newer Posts
