Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Chapter 215:
at 21:21
Anger, tears, bewilderment and exasperation.
They drain you (so very very much), yet the random occurrences reassures the strength of the friendship.
I never once doubted our friendship, but truly, I can do without all the drama, love.
They take the life out of me.
& I'm serious when I say I experience the guilt when no one else sees my point.
And through it all, I really find a need to reassure myself that I'm not mean.
Because truly, there's no one else to do it for me.
I advocate self-worth issues, but sometimes, people do get you down.
While you finally get stronger, I find a piece of me missing.
But I'll be fine, I'll be.
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I'm resigned with how love between 2 is so over-rated.
I'm resigned with how superficial the world function.
I'm exasperated with people who love others more than themselves, and love one so much more than their friends.
(When the one doesn't even place you on the altar, nor treat you sincerely and faithfully.)
I'm tired of just being the one, that gets shoved around & postponed.
And through it all, I'm certain, I will never be like this.
& I pray that all these words from my mind, will never turn to mush and bullshit, the very day in the far future when I fall in love.
'cause I don't want history to repeat, and to merely prove that I mean what I say.
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Just plain tired.
Things happened.
Things which I didn't expect to, nor did I prepare for.
Things which really, made an impact on my life, or rather certain parts of it.
Food for thought - How reliable is anyone?
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